this is not first time i am feeling this way. i do feel that way. but these days i strongly feel i have no aim in life. i m just leading a life from one step to another step. i doont feel like i m acheving anything out of all these hard labor of day and night. neither any one is benefited from me no i can inspire any one for anything. i wounder how can i be so lifeless in myself. after coming all the way till here, i am no better than what i was over the years back.
some of my friends think that i m never satisfied with what i have. i donot think thats my problem. i m not satisfied becuase, i think, i m not getting what i want.
i wonder, this is the kind of life i want for me, miles away from home and family. though, i have friends to support and they are doiong their best. still, i am alone and strugling to win all the obstacle.
last week, mom and dad had a small bike accident. they didnot told me coz they didnot wanted to worry. i was anxious for them and worried when i get to know from other person. i know my brother is there, he takes care of everything and he is better than me at those things. still, i wias worried and concerned. when i had to think all that,, i just feels exhausted. i donot whether its the path i m following. i m not sure ni ta whats next, i know i want to have this degree finished and then may be phd... what aftr that,,, no wonder,, i can never figure out what i want from my life,,
i feel like one day i will go mad about all these things and opt to sanyas,,,, hahah
unny,,
i need to figure out
why i m so,,,
i donot know how
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